Ever play the game of telephone? Don't you love how words are completely changed around halfway through the circle? I for one do not appreciate it.
Communication is super important, & sadly it does not always come out right.
I am completely guilty of sometimes not completely listening to people & mis-quoting others...but never maliciously. I try to be an upfront person who is willing to be completely honest with the people in my life. I have my faults & own them, I strive to be a person that my children can look up to & respect. Do I always hit that mark? No, not quite. But I am willing to admit my mistakes & move on.
Part of being human is being flawed. Part of being a good person is being willing to admit when you have messed up. Another part of being a good person is not hurting others.
These are lessons that so many people have forgotten. Sometimes I lose sight of doing the right thing...as all flawed people do. I try my best to be the best person I can...sometimes it feels like it's not good enough. Sometimes I feel like I'm not allowed to make a mistake. I think our society judges others unfairly. I think it has become second nature to a lot of people.
I am trying my best to teach Maddie to be a forgiving & nonjudgmental person. (As far as C. goes, he has two of the best people I have ever met raising him & teaching him right from wrong...I have no doubts there :) Thank The Lord)
I have made many mistakes in my life & I feel that I have always faced them head on. It is important to be able to admit when you are wrong, that is something I believe in 100% . And that sucks. It is never ever fun to face things head on & admit mistakes. I have done this on more than one occasion & have first hand knowledge. Lol...if only we could ever learn!
I guess the whole point of this is that today was an enlightening day. No matter how honest & good you try to be there is always someone out there waiting to judge you, or knock you down. That is a sad fact of life.
Sorry for the sappy, down post tonight. Sometimes you can just feel when change is needed & right. I feel like I need a change right now. I have been thinking of how I can live my life for my children... And there are changes that could be made. Do I make them? How can you tell what is right? Why is being a good parent (and person for that matter, lol) so hard? Damn this is pretty deep stuff, huh?
And no, I'm not boozing it up, although sometimes that option sounds very good. :)
I am trying to be a good person...I am trying to be a responsible person & attempt up help stop a public health crisis for Gods sake! (. ;) drama much?)but seriously, I take my responsibility in society seriously, whether others do or not. No one can change my view on that. I would hope anyone would want to help make the world a safer place for our children.
Anyway, getting past my drama for today... I feel good physically. Emotionally I'm a mess because of how "friends" are treating each other lately. Hell, maybe a side effect of Rifampin is mood instability..,I wouldn't know as I'm trying to not google info on it :)
Sorry for any who don't want to read my drama... I just couldn't help it today. :)
Some days are just a pain... And my way of clearing my mind is to blog about what's on it. I thank God daily for the blessings in my life... My children, family, friends & stable employment. Those are the important things in life, family being #1, not selfishness.
Now that I've cleared all that out of my head...I'd like to call out my BFF... I texted her earlier & told her I needed a pick-me-up. Here's what she sent me...
Now, I dare anyone to say there is a better BFF anywhere. She made me smile. Thank God for good friends, especially those who understand crazy. And thank God for the mothers who raised them right...to not judge crazy.
I can't complain about life, I have been blessed thus far, & I have faith I will continue to be blessed. All of this drama crap is small, and not important.
I have gotten off of the demon-meds & onto something more tolerable...small victories! :) I have an amazing family & friends. I have amazing extended family & friends who read my crazy rantings to help me vent. Life is pretty good... And in my heart I know I'm a good person :)