I do think I have finally hit my limit with the INH. The peripheral neuropathy hasn't felt too terrible, every now & then my hands hurt...my feet a lot more often. It's like they fall asleep, not a terrible hurt, but annoying, lol. So afterwards for a while they feel kinda almost numb...like I'm touching everything through gloves. I think I've gotten used to it, it hasn't been as bad as when it started.
So while I was cutting up veggies today I guess I cut my finger. I was watching Maddie & the TV & cooking...multitasking of course :)
But the thing is, I never noticed it! It wasn't until I saw blood on the potato I was cutting that I realized I was bleeding! I still couldn't feel it. So, if I'm at that level of neuropathy that I can't feel cuts deep enough to bleed a lot, I'm done. It kinda freaked me out. This crap can become permanent. How can I be a nurse & not be able to feel? I'm sure it only gets worse. I can't deal with that thought.
And you know what pisses me off more than anything? The fact that I'm taking 6 different pills a day to try to make the neuropathy better! Seriously! WTF am I taking this crap for if it's only getting worse? This sucks!
Now before you call the men in white coats, I'm not quitting the INH....yet. There is a very high risk of converting to active if you stop treatment early & don't start another antibiotic. And after all this crap I would seriously lose my shit if I were to become active. I plan on calling the dept of health every hour tomorrow & leaving a message if I can. Only if work permits though. I am charge tomorrow so Queen Melissa may have to pick up my slack. ;) Luv you!
But I am going to tell them that they have til the end of the week to get me on different meds. (I'm totally bluffing, but shhhh) I still need to call my doc back & let him know that the ID doc is an ass & no one has called me, even after messages were left. What's going to happen? I have no freaking idea. I'm still kinda stuck, I don't want active tb, but I don't want this shit either. The risks of INH suck, but the thing is that they only affect me (& everyone who knows me cuz they have to listen to me). If I were to become active I would expose my child, husband, parents, friends, babies! That risk involves more than just myself & I can not justify taking it. I wish I could...damnit why can't I be more selfish? Lol, just kidding!
So, no worries people, I will still be here complaining about the tb/INH stuff... My wittiness will still be in full force, I hope. :)
Everyone just cross your fingers that someone decides to get off their lazy ass & help me. And hopefully sooner, after a couple of messages are left I am sure to be very pissy. I know, that's shocking! But yes, I can be a bit of a bitch (stop laughing) sometimes. :)
All right, that's all I got tonight. A DP & Crown would be awful nice right now...darnit!
Goodnight all!
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