Day 93 / 4

Another fun day at work. 

But I am super duper tired... And with a headache that started around 6, & isn't gone yet.

But I'm still better today than I was this time last week. :) 

I am gonna go tuck in my baby girl, hopefully I will have something more fun to report tomorrow. 

To tide you over til then, here is a pic of my sweet girl with some Texas sized sunflowers in the back yard! 

That's all folks!

Day 92 & 3

117 days left!! Yay! :) And today was super awesome! John took Maddie to school this morning, so after I got her ready to go at 5:30 I got to go back to sleep! I slept in until 9:30! Yay for sleep! 

Oh yes, btw, the mattress is so nice! I have been sleeping very well. So far I love it! 

Oh yeah, then after I picked Madison up & took her to swim lessons we stopped at Sonic for chocolate malts! Yummy! :) Then fun times at the library where she decided that she needed Pinnochio again (Nevermind that she just had it & returned it 3 weeks ago, lol)

Stopped at the mailbox & what did I find?  An awesome package from none other than Mr. Manning!! ;) 

Now how freaking awesome is that? I am one lucky girl!! 

I still don't know how he sends it from the address of my awesome aunt & uncle, but hey, not all of life's mysteries are meant to be solved. However it gets to me doesn't matter. I am a very thankful lady!

So day 3 of Rifampin is going well. I feel good. I am still having occasional headaches, but other than that everything is great. Maybe the reason I'm feeling better is related to my change in attitude rather than meds. Whatever it is, once again I am thankful. 

I am also down a total of 21 lbs from the start of this....92 days ago. The journey of losing the weight wasn't really optimal, but hey, I'm happy that I can fit into my old clothes! :) So let's have another yay for weight loss! 

Ok, so now I need to just vent...not to throw politics into this whole mess, but I'm just peeved. So, if you are an Obama lover you can stop reading now...

This whole immigration crisis is a huge mess. For one thing, an American single mother gets arrested & charged with a felony for letting her 9 year old go to the neighborhood park alone....but it's just peachy that all of these families from Mexico are sending their very small unsupervised children to another country! With the hope of it being a way in for the parents...and the stupid thing is...our stupid government is allowing it! Hell, our so-called president is practically encouraging it & basically doesn't give a shit enough to meet with our governor while in our state fund raising. He didn't have time...oh yeah, I forgot that he had time for a quick meeting on the tarmac in between begging for money for god knows what. Asswipe. 

Anyway, that's neither here not there. My point is that 63% of TB cases is the US in 2012 were foreign born people. And that's just national... The Tx rate is actually higher. And who is the #1 worst country that it's coming from? 

Ding ding ding!!! You guessed it! Mexico. 

How many of these kids are bringing TB, (let alone the fact that they have higher rates of drug resistant tb) to  the US...a lot thru my lovely state. I know there was a recent investigation about several sick foreign kids in San Antonio...it just makes me sick! Here is some data from the cdc

So, the thing that really irks me is... Our stupid government is probably going to reward these families who send their disease-spreading children (a little dramatic I know) to our country & helping keep this & other diseases alive & spreading. 

Again, it makes me sick. Not to mention who the hell pays for the care of all these children? Oh yeah, that would be us. Thanks, I worry about having enough income for my family & being fiscally responsible, but let's have my taxes pay for other peoples greed. Great. 

I know guys, I'm being a little dramatic about it, but it just pisses me off. And seeing as how most of you guys love me & already know my opinions, it shouldn't bother you. 

Allright, now that all of the peeves are out of my system I am heading to bed. Goodnight friends! 

Omaha! ;)

Day 91 & day 2

Today felt like it dragged on forever! Of course it was a work day. But finally I am home & relaxing. Just had a tickle match with Maddie & put her to bed. Fun times!

And I played a bingo game on an event on Facebook & won some free Jamberry nail wraps! Yay! :) Who knew a Facebook event could be so fun? 

So, it is day 2 of Rifampin...and yes, my fluids are all orange. I've been asked 4 times today, lol! So we have 118 days to go! Yippee! There is a light somewhere at the end of the tunnel....it's like a pinpoint right now, but it's there! I want to thank all of you guys for supporting me (and putting up with my whining & crying) through all of this. You guys rock! 

I am gonna take my red meds & call it a day! Good night everyone! Don't let the bedbugs bite!!!

Day 90 also Day 1!!!

Day 90 of this whole mess, day 1 of Rifampin!!! 

Yay, the countdown for the now 120 days begins!!! Woo Hoo! :)

So starting today means that I will have a total of 210 days of this mess...considering all goes well, which it will! 

So that is exactly two months shy of my original plan of 270 days. Holla!!!

The biggest deal with the Rifampin is it has to be taken 1 hr before or 2 hrs after meals, preferably at the same time every day. Oh yeah, it also turns all of your bodily fluids orange.  

Really? Hmmm, let's think on that, instead of bleeding orange for my Broncos I will be..... Well let's just not say the words, but cool! ;) Go Broncos!!!

If you are not deaf, blind or dumb, it should be pretty obvious that I'm ready for football season! 

My appt went well this morning, especially since I found out I needed to be there for a 9:00 appt at 7:45 am. Lol. Well it turns out my nurse got lost & didn't show up til 9:45....which is fine as far as I'm concerned. I'm just glad it happened! And guess what???

My sweet grandma/evil stepmother nurse will be back for my next appt!!! Yay! She got to miss out on all my crazy!  At least lets hope that it was all of my crazy... Lord help everyone if I could be worse! 

And, on the plus side, we got semi-good news at Maddie's eye dr today. Her sight is better & the (I'm putting this in lay terms) lazy eye is better too, but not where it should be. The dr says she has a moderate amount of control of them both, which is way better than before! She said that there is still the possibility of surgery in Maddie's future, but overall things were looking very good! Can I get a whoop whoop?! 

Overall a good day for us. Oh yeah, our new bed was delivered today...another yay! 

I hope everyone has a great night, and of course, sweet dreams! 

Day 89

Work day with Shanaynay! ;) We are a great team! It always sucks to work on a weekend, but working with awesome peeps helps.

I am still holding onto hope that somehow my 1030 appt will happen.... It's not likely, which really sucks cuz I work like every other day this week. Boo :(  but hope lives on! 

Nothing much fun to report today. I have actually been feeling very good the last few days. I know the Rifampin is easier on the body, I really hope so cuz I don't know if I can go thru all that INH crap again. 

So, I'm heading off to bed now. Hope everyone has a good night. I'll update tomorrow. 

Day 88

It has been a great day. Finally went out & bought our new mattress. Holy crap when did they get so expensive? It is supposed to be delivered Monday! :) 

Then we did some more shopping & went to lunch. Then we come home & swam! Fun times! Yummy dinner of ribs, bacon-wrapped pork loin, slow cooked beans, potato salad & roasted fresh squash! Yummy! Talk about some huge squash that mom grew! 

And now Maddie & John are playing this weeks version of hide & seek glow sticks in the pool! Lol, fun fun times we have out here in the country!

So I'm sitting on the swing, watching them play. :) And ruffling up the citronella plant every so often, lol.

Citronella is my friend.

So, it just hit me that I have to work tomorrow! Yuck! Damn! I'd better wrap this up & get off my phone so I can spend time with my family. 

Good night friends!

Day 87

Day 87.... I had a fantastic day, lunch & long chat with my BFF. Even if we haven't seen each other in 3 weeks it doesn't matter. We always pick up right where we left off like it was a bathroom break instead of a month, lol! I don't think I ever knew how amazing it is to have a friend like that, and I had been missing out for so long! Everybody needs a REAL BFF...not these fake people that pretend. 

We got to talking about the game coming up! OMG! I'm so excited now! I love love love my husband! And I almost kinda love Peyton Manning...if that wasn't clear already! ;) Again, I'm a lucky girl because I have a very understanding husband who puts up with my public displays of affection for Mr. Manning. God bless him. 

So, onto another topic....have you seen the trailer for Fifty Shades? Hmmm. Still not 100% sure how they will pull it off as a movie, but it looks very interesting. Am I gonna go see it on Valentines Day when it comes out? Oh hell to the no! Seriously? If it's half as good as the book it will be like watching a porno with 150 other people....now that's gross! 

However, I also saw the trailer for another awesome book turned movie...Gone Girl! I am super excited to see that! Fantastic cast! If you haven't read that book you are missing out! I don't think I've ever had that many emotions & conflicting feelings while reading one book! It totally blew my mind! I am glad that this one is coming out sooner, in October I think. 

And a note about the tb thing. It is possible that the rifampin isn't going to start on a Monday either. My last email from the nurse today said she didn't have the form yet. Wth? Why isn't anything easy? Really? I just want to get this new countdown started! Is that too much to ask? I am very ready to have this chapter of my life in the past. I guess I won't know until Monday A.M. if it's happening. I think my appt is supposed to be at 1030. So let's cross our fingers & toes! 

Well my little girl is wanting to "camp out" tonight. She is so excited, lol! 

Hope everyone has sweet dreams & a great Friday night! Tomorrow starts soon! :)

Day 86 - we are still a no go

Oh well. Got an email from my nurse saying that she still hasn't gotten the appropriate ppw & may not be able to start me on Monday! Holy Hell! What a mess. Is it really just me? It's pretty sad to think this just keeps happening. Why isn't anything easy?

Oh well, no need to dwell. I surely don't need any stress! ;) Everything happens for a reason, right? I know this is some sort of life lesson, but I don't think I'm getting it yet, lol! Hopefully the light will come on & I will understand. This has to make me a better person in the end, right ? 

The good news is... I didn't plan a vacay to Colorado this summer to stalk...I mean attend the Broncos training camp, seeing how it's closed to the public. :( boo

The good news is, Mr. Manning put out a statement just for me...

And when he says "fans" he really just means me... I hope everyone understands that. ;) He really just wanted for me to see him flex those muscles! 

Hmmmm....Nice!

Oh allright, I'll stop! But man, how pissed would I have been if I had planned our vacay around that camp & it didn't happen. I prob really would have gone into stalker mode. :) 

The good news is, I just got my tickets to see my man play the Cowgirls next month!!! Shut the front door! :) it is going to be a-ma-zing! I just know it. I mean seriously, I could be within 200 feet of him... Oh yeah, the others too. It will be nice to see Welker play too! ;) 

(That's for you Erin!)

Allright, I really should start focusing on the whole tb/rifampin thing. That would prob be good. But all I can think of is.... FOOTBALL!! Woo hoo! 

So I would like to wish everyone sweet dreams of fantastic football players! Hmm!

Day 85 - no Rifampin :(

Dad-gum-it!

Of course! The appt didn't happen today. Hopefully I can get ahold of the dr tomorrow & get him to sign the ppw. If so I will get the meds on Monday. The nurse assured me that I will be fine off the INH while I'm waiting on the rifampin. Unless somehow I have developed cancer in the last 80 some-odd days, lol. You can't ever rule everything out! ;)

But really, she isn't too worried, so neither am I. It's all good...right? 

Had a great afternoon/evening with the fam. The pool is a nice 84-86 degrees... Just my temp! 

We had fun playing in the sun! (Actually not really in the sun Nicole!) :) 

Life is fantastic in the country... No noise except for cows/Frack/chickens/neighbors goats/occasional train in the distance. And then of course from Maddie...can't forget that, lol!  But it really is so relaxing out here. Does the drive in to work suck? Yes, sometimes...but the peace & quiet is so worth it! 

So onto another day...tomorrow is work...Friday the dept of health nurse is off.  That is why the day to start is Monday. I hate that it keeps getting delayed. I want to start that 120 day countdown, lol. It's on my to-do list. Oh, as far as that goes, I copied a cute pic from fb... 

Can anyone relate? :) 

Well I am off to tuck my little princess in & read a story. :) 

Goodnight everyone! 

Day 84

So, I was totally expecting to start my Rifampin tomorrow, but of course, things probably aren't going to happen as expected. The dept of health nurse says there is a problem with my Rx, so I won't know til tomorrow am if she can get it straightened out! Lol, of course everything can't go perfectly. :) 

Let's all cross our fingers & toes that this will all work out! Positive thoughts! 

Maybe it will be a little delay...but I am so ready to get started on my final 120 pills! Woohoo! Hopefully I will have good news to report tomorrow. 

That's about it guys... Nothing too exciting happening here. Work, work, work...sleep a little & do it again. Man, my supervisor is a slave driver! You should see how she works Queen Melissa to the ground too! ;) she is soooo very lucky we love her & are a happy little unit family! Just kidding! But we really do play well together. 

Make sure to check in tomorrow for the next episode of my daily drama!  :)

Hope you all have a nice night!

Day 83 - one more free day!

Well today sure was a whopper! Poor Maddie had a terrible time all day being upset about her glasses. Somehow her & Daddy found them this afternoon, thank goodness!! Whew! My tummy was in knots all day worrying! 

Today is the first day I can remember lately that I haven't had a headache! Yay! I know it's gonna take a while for the vitamin deficiency to get completely better, but I am already seeing some changes. Yay! I am being hopeful that the Rifampin is going to be easier on my body. :) 

I am going to spend a few minutes reading my girl a story, try to make the end of this day better than the start. :) 

Thanks to everyone for letting me vent today! I appreciate it!

Day 82

Okay, so I was going to write about my lazy day... But seeing as how I have been turning my house upside down for two hours looking for yet another missing thing... Maddies glasses. That she adores! She always puts them where they go, she's upset, I'm upset. Grrr. I have no more words to write that are appropriate, so this is all. Again, grrr! 

Tomorrow WILL be better. :) Goodnight friends!

Day 81 - it's def a beer thirty kinda day

Oh Lordy Lordy Lordy! My day is over...

As I write this I am sitting on my porch swing watching Maddie & John swim in the dark. They are playing "find the glow stick" lol

The crickets are chirping....Sadie at my feet...oh, what's that? The always memorable scent of a skunk! Yuck! :) 

That's about how I feel lately about a lot. Everything is going great & then there's always a big stink.  At least this one is far away & I'm not worried. 

I never ever want to be on call for work...I love the babies! But it never fails that when I do want it, it never happens, lol. Not that I can really complain about having work to do, I'm really not doing that. Sometimes I just want a break on something, it feels like the punches keep on coming. 

I know that sounds totally whiny! Geez, I need to get over myself! ;)

I had a good clarifying moment with a dr today, it made me feel a lot better. Sometimes you just need to be heard & have your feelings validated, and I am lucky to work with some great docs who always take care of us nurses. Thank you! You know who you are! And thanks to my coworker who helped the moment happen. :)

And on my way home my nice friends decided that they had to say hi before I could pass! Lol

Fun times at the 4J! 

On a plus, I'm feeling pretty good today! Just I'm time to start all over again on Wed. A drink sounded very tempting this evening when I came home & saw that Maddie & a visitor had completely torn her room upside down. A room that was perfectly clean yesterday... Grrr. I am very thankful for friends & family that make the kids clean up before they go. So that & the fact I was feeling good made me think about it....but nope, not gonna do it! My poor liver needs a break! 

So it's night-night time. Good night all!

Day 80

Whew! Another long day...some days seem a lot longer than others. Not too much happening in my world. 

As before, today is better than yesterday. My biggest complaint is a yucky headache that just won't go away! I took all the Motrin I had with me. Tried caffeine, and dark chocolate. While they were both nice they didn't help, lol. Then I begged some Motrin off of Queen Melissa.  That took the edge off til I got home. 

And seeing as how I work tomorrow also, I have to hit the hay.  Maybe since I'm feeling a little better I will be able to think of more to blog about soon. :) 

Day 79

Why do I keep numbering the days, you ask? Well for starters I am still not drinking, for fear of liver damage. I was pretty worried about it with my pain the last few days. The pain is much, much better. I also keep these numbers because damnit, I want credit for all these crappy INH days! :) 

The good part is that once I start the Rifampin it's only 120 days! Yay! That will have me over this junk a month & a half earlier than planned. Now that would be awesome. I should get my meds next Wed. I have to drive to Temple again...I know, I know...I said I was never ever driving there again after my terrible day.  But it looks as if that's the only way. Any takers on someone to go with me? It's a lovely trip up the always-under-construction 35. And the state offices are so beautiful & still have the original decorations (like from the 70s) and it's so fun to have to sign in & wear a badge & be escorted to a room. Fun times!! Any takers? :)

Yea, I thought not, lol. 

All right, that's all I have the energy for tonight. Back to the grind at work tomorrow! :) yay! 

Until then! 

Day 78 eh

Not a terrible day, not a great one. Feeling a bit better, but overall crappy & blah. 

Still taking my vitamins til I hear otherwise (except the Magnesium - that freaking horse pill was giving me an aversion)

But I'm calling it quits early again - hitting the sack. 

Goodnight!

Day 77 I am thankful for the people in my life

Thank you to everyone for the support & encouragement yesterday, it was a bleak day. 

I am still hurting some...made an appt for Thursday, if it gets worse I'll go to a minor emergency. But guess what? The dept of health called me back & told me to stop the INH & she was going to get me on Rifampin! Praise The Lord!

After a few minor hoops & a blood draw done by an awesome NICU nurse I am on my way to getting my Rifampin. I meet her next week. There are more hoops to jump through. 

I am very thankful that everyone helped me thru my worst day of this & there was light on the other side. I still feel pretty crappy, so I'm cutting it short. 

Hopefully I'll have more details tomorrow. 

Goodnight all!

Day 76 sucks

Really bad. More phone calls & messages left, including to my PCP... I guess I must be friggin invisible because no one thinks they need to call me back! Everyone is a jerk.... Everyone I've left a message for, that is. :( I even emailed the dept of health nurse. No response. 

So I feel very neglected & I started having some pain today in my back. It got worse & worse & also in the front on the right side under my right breast. I told my coworker that I was hurting & it felt familiar, but I couldn't tell her what it was. Driving home I got it. It is just like the pain I was having with my gallbladder before I got rid of the damn thing. Hmmm. One more thing to add to my list if anyone ever calls me back. 

Ok, sorry about all this, I'm going to try to go to bed & wallow in my misery... 

I hope everyone has a good night! And I hope tomorrow is better. 

Day 75 - another lazy Sunday

I didn't really do much today. Got to sleep in! Yay! :) I love sleeping in.

I do think I have finally hit my limit with the INH. The peripheral neuropathy hasn't felt too terrible, every now & then my hands hurt...my feet a lot more often. It's like they fall asleep, not a terrible hurt, but annoying, lol. So afterwards for a while they feel kinda almost numb...like I'm touching everything through gloves. I think I've gotten used to it, it hasn't been as bad as when it started. 

So while I was cutting up veggies today I guess I cut my finger. I was watching Maddie & the TV & cooking...multitasking of course :) 

But the thing is, I never noticed it! It wasn't until I saw blood on the potato I was cutting that I realized I was bleeding! I still couldn't feel it. So, if I'm at that level of neuropathy that I can't feel cuts deep enough to bleed a lot, I'm done. It kinda freaked me out. This crap can become permanent. How can I be a nurse & not be able to feel? I'm sure it only gets worse. I can't deal with that thought. 

And you know what pisses me off more than anything? The fact that I'm taking 6 different pills a day to try to make the neuropathy better! Seriously! WTF am I taking this crap for if it's only getting worse? This sucks!

Now before you call the men in white coats, I'm not quitting the INH....yet. There is a very high risk of converting to active if you stop treatment early & don't start another antibiotic. And after all this crap I would seriously lose my shit if I were to become active. I plan on calling the dept of health every hour tomorrow & leaving a message if I can. Only if work permits though. I am charge tomorrow so Queen Melissa may have to pick up my slack. ;) Luv you!

But I am going to tell them that they have til the end of the week to get me on different meds. (I'm totally bluffing, but shhhh) I still need to call my doc back & let him know that the ID doc is an ass & no one has called me, even after messages were left. What's going to happen? I have no freaking idea. I'm still kinda stuck, I don't want active tb, but I don't want this shit either. The risks of INH suck, but the thing is that they only affect me (& everyone who knows me cuz they have to listen to me). If I were to become active I would expose my child, husband, parents, friends, babies! That risk involves more than just myself & I can not justify taking it. I wish I could...damnit why can't I be more selfish? Lol, just kidding! 

So, no worries people, I will still be here complaining about the tb/INH stuff... My wittiness will still be in full force, I hope. :)

Everyone just cross your fingers that someone decides to get off their lazy ass & help me. And hopefully sooner, after a couple of messages are left I am sure to be very pissy. I know, that's shocking! But yes, I can be a bit of a bitch (stop laughing) sometimes. :) 

All right, that's all I got tonight. A DP & Crown would be awful nice right now...darnit!

Goodnight all!

Day 74 and I'm off work tomorrow!

Day 74...had a good day at work, been watching my loves swim since I got home. I'm about to fall asleep in the swing, but oh well, at least I'm involved in family time. Lol

I have to do a shout out to my sweet friend Stef, who got engaged today!! I am so happy & excited for her, loved hearing the joy in her voice today. It is bittersweet though, as she is leaving us the end of this week to go to Kentucky, Ohio...whatever. It's some state that we aren't in, so we are sad at work to lose such a valuable team member. Love ya girl! 

Well I am super tired, and the Mosquitos must have face masks on cuz they are ignoring the citronella, lol. So they are chasing me inside, I surely can't afford to get West Nile Virus! So if I'm going inside I may as well go to sleep. 

Goodnight all! Sleep tight!

Day 73 - who needs to return calls?

Whew! It's been a long day! :) 

I called my dept of health nurse & left a message this am... No return call

No return call from ID doc either. I guess no one wants to discuss my meds. I'm glad I have my amazing friends & family here to give me support & encouragement. I swear I don't know what I would have done without it. So just keep praying for me...or pray for either of these nurses who are not returning calls. They may be getting an earful soon.  ;)

Nothing much to tell today... That was about it. I'm off to get some beauty sleep for tomorrow. :) I hope it's a little faster than today. 

Goodnight friends!

Day 72

I had planned on visiting my local library today, nope. I drove up & every parking spot was full & people were parking in the field behind it. Now this may come as a shock to some of y'all, but I'm not really a people person. :) So, no way was I going in there. I will just drop off my stuff in the drop box tomorrow before work & hope that it's not like that on Tuesday. 

It was just weird, I mean I'm talking about Bertram, there's probably only about 50 people who live here... ;) well, maybe a few more than that, but hey it's not exactly a big town. One stop light peeps. So, I guess everyone in the area played hookey today & went to the library. Except me. 

And I tried again to call the ID doc, got someone after they re-opened for lunch. I tell the lady a long spiel about my current situation only to have her tell me that I need to talk to his RN, as he wants to approve of any new patients before he sees them. Seeing as how he got the referral last Wed & still hasn't called me, I'm gonna go out on a limb & say that I'm not interesting enough. So if I don't hear back tomorrow I think I'm gonna call the dept of health RN & plead a bit heavier.  And probably hint around that this is getting old. (Not that I plan on stopping meds) I guess I will go from there. 

All right, that's about it for tonight! Have a good night! :)

Day 71 - homebody day!

Today I didn't leave the house...wait, that's not true. Let's say I didn't leave the property. That's better. What a great day. 

I finished canning my tomatoes (finally) and did some laundry. That's about it! Besides cooking dinner, that is. What a productive day :)

I did totally forget how long it takes to get that huge ass canning pot to boil... Especially when the darn lid is MIA.  Seriously, we are talking a total of about 4 hours working on canning...sterilizing the jars, keeping the lids warm, warming the tomatoes to hot-pack them & then the actual "canning" part that took 45 minutes. Whew... But by golly I know where my tomatoes came from & that there is nothing added...except citric acid (lemon juice) :) I wish I had company though. Canning is like making tamales, it should be a big event with several hands.  

Tomorrow is my 3rd & final day off this week. I guess I'd better do all the stuff I should have done yesterday & today, lol. I just can't seem to stop procrastinating! :)

Well my little one doesn't want to stay in bed tonight so I'd better cut this short! Good night all!

Day 70... Only 200 to go!

That sounded a lot better in my head, lol. 200 more days, wowza.

Just another day, lol. Had a great long lunch with my BFF - love her! We had a good talk , or I talked a lot & she listened, lol. Thank God for good friends! We watched this total a-hole confront two women on the patio at Chuys. These two ladies had the audacity to leave their table & go smoke in the designated smoking area & come back to eat. He called the manager over & then left his table & made the woman with him pack up her lunch. Not before he confronted the women & told them how terrible they were for smoking. Smoking! Cigarettes! 

Holy Cow! What would he do in Colorado? Lol! 

As soon as he stomped off, the manager was apologizing to the women. Some people.... And I thought I was having a rough time... Could you imagine being that poor woman with that jerk? 

So, I had to go buy some pint size jars for my tomatoes & more citric acid, so the tomato canning will continue & hopefully wrap up tomorrow! :) yay! One more check on my list. 

And on to the INH/TB issues... Mom went to our PCP today & got the name of the ID doc they are sending me to. So tomorrow morning I plan on lighting up their lines until I get an appt. :) wish me luck! 

I guess that's it for today. I wish everyone sweet dreams for tonight & great days for tomorrow! :)

Day 69 - headaches

Well, day 69 is ending & boy howdy am I tired! Today felt like an extra long day at work...the kind that you just can't wait to get to bed...no dinner or any of that junk. 

So my blogging today is not a high priority, but by golly I am determined to blog every day of this journey. :)

The headache that started around 5 isn't helping matters, so I am about ready to  hit the sack.  No call from ID docs today, but hey, it is a Monday after a holiday. I can be a little patient. :) 

My eyes are super droopy, so I am signing off now :)

Day 68 - Sunday!

What a great day...get to sleep in til 8ish, hang out with Maddie in our pj's & watch the Disney channel. :) 

Late morning I decided to go ahead & get started on canning all of these tomatoes, thanks to Maddie & Becca's kiddos for picking them all! 

So I washed them, then did the "musical pot" with them, lol. Boiling water to ice water to big pot & then transferred to another one while skinning them. And them cut them & placed in a large bowl... Only to stay in the fridge because, aw hell... My big canning cooker is at the Lakehouse!! Lol, of course it is. It would have been too easy to get it all done today. :) Well at least I can say I started it... I wish I could say I did the hard part... More to come on that, prob Tuesday.

Then swimming and then a nap & then pool again for my two loves, then cook dinner, and whew, where did the day go?

There is just not enough time...especially on days off. 

Tomorrow is Monday Funday! Let's see how it goes & see if I get any calls. :)

OMG, I had a dream last night that another coworker came up TB + and together we got to give each other injections for treatment that lasted 8 weeks...I wish! Lol. Must be thinking too much on this lately.

I don't have much else in this head of mine... Been working hard to keep it empty today, lol. 

So I hope everyone has a good night & a good start to next week! :)

Day 67 -work, friends & fireworks

Nice day at work today. It's hard to believe there are still people at work who don't know the whole INH thing, I feel like I've told everyone on the planet, lol. But every now & then I get to stroll over to another unit & someone doesn't know. It's always fun to tell the story...not!

Well anyways, it was a good busy day at work with great coworkers. :) 

Then I get to drive home with one of the crazy -Oh I mean great!- coworkers to see our men & children hanging out. The kiddos had a blast, and swam til it was too dark to, then did some fireworks. Country life is great! 

I am trying not to be so anxious in waiting for a call from ID... Not really succeeding though, lol. I can see how so many people out there stop taking their meds... If the government is not willing to listen to the symptoms & instead just want to follow their list/protocol, people will get fed up & just quit. Not saying that I am, I am just pointing out that I can see how it happens now. 

It has been a busy day, & tomorrow is going to be here soon. :) 

Hope everyone has a great night! 

Day 66 - Happy July 4th!

Its the fireworks day... Yay! :) Unfortunately I have to work tomorrow, so I had to back out of the Lakehouse celebration. :(  I wish I was there with the rest of the family. Oh well, enough of a pity party... I should take advantage of this home alone time & go to sleep! Lol

Fun times at the 4J today, a little bit of swimming, not much of anything else. Woo Hoo! Days off are great! 

Well, let's keep our fingers crossed that the referral to ID is going to help me out! 

So, here's to all the brave men & women who have risked/given their all for our freedom. I am so grateful that there are amazing people like you out there. I know  if seems that in this day & age there are less good people in this world, and more lazy & immoral ones. But, in the end good will prevail.  We just have to keep the faith! 

Goodnight peeps! Happy Fireworks!

65 days...

It was a super busy day today. Lots of fun at work. :) don't know why, but I'm very tired this evening. 

No news yet from ID docs, but I'm not really expecting to hear til next Monday or Tuesday. I am still crossing my fingers & toes...& eyes too today ;)

I don't have anything else to comment on, hopefully I can dig something up tomorrow. :) 

Hope everyone has a great night.

Day 64 at the drs office

I had my appt with my beloved family practice physician. He was super sweet but unable to change my med. Boo. 

He does agree that I am not tolerating the INH & need to try something else. 

We had a nice long talk about how the government runs programs... Basically they have a checklist & a protocol & they do not deviate from that. Even if all common sense says to, lol. Their employees are not allowed to think for themselves. 

But it is still unfair that I would have to stay on this med until my liver starts to fail. Basically I have to sacrifice my liver to the government until I can be rewarded with a med change. Fun times. 

I say that's a no go. I fully intend to make sure my liver is fully functioning and ready to make up for lost times. :) I have many plans for us. 

So, he can not help, but Infectious Disease docs can. He is sending me to one & getting in touch with them to give his recommendation. Yay! Score for me. 

Even if they do not want to change the INH for some strange reason it will be ok. I will at least feel like I have been heard & looked at as a whole body & not just a number. I should hear by next Monday about an appt. Lets all keep a positive outlook on it. More to come soon...

Today was my little ones 5th birthday! She was so excited today! After her swim lessons we stopped at Sonic for malts (yummo) and came home to swim. Of course daddy joined in, if one of my fishies is in the water the other must follow. :)  

We swam until it started raining, well actually we swam until it started raining harder & the thunder came. Then we took a fruit break. 

Doesn't she have super cute feet? 

Well it has been a long day, full of all kinds of drama. Unfortunately it is inappropriate to post about it on the internet. Most friends and family will know what I'm talking about though. 

Ready to hit the hay... Sleep tight peeps!

Day 63

Day 63 was pretty normal, until I became "that crazy medical" family member. Oh geez, I hate being on the other side of things. Especially when they don't go how they should. :( 

Everybody is ok, I don't want to list specifics because of all the parties involved. But I did make a complaint today with administration of a hospital. I am still so mad that I could spit nails.

I'm confident it will all be ok. 

Med-wise, nothing new. Dr appt tomorrow, gonna try for a new drug again. Wish me luck. :)

I printed a lot of info out about INH vs Rifampin. Gotta get to studying, lol. 

Gonna hit the sack, goodnight.