Day 11 & 100 - blah

Allright guys, I'm still in the dumps but I promise to not dwell on it. I'm making this one short. 

Today has been ok. I went shopping at Costco & darn it why do they have such cool stuff? I go for two things & end up with a cartful of food & a Halloween costume for Maddie. And that would be why I only go there about once every couple of months. Lol. But I did get their chicken Alfredo & had an easy yummy dinner...score. :)

I'm wondering if my headaches aren't allergy related. I'm gonna take some Allegra or something to see if it helps. Otherwise, physically I'm good. 

Oh, Rant #1! I can't watch my Broncos play tonight's preseason game! I'm catching up listening on the radio. 

Rant #2

Mean people suck - and damnit why doesn't karma kick in yet & slap deserving people in the face? And I absolute despise how some people hide behind God & pretend they are good people just because they quote scripture. Talk about fake assholes. 

One last part - if you don't want to know what crazy ass thoughts are in my head then just don't read my blog - and don't let the door hit you on the ass on your way out. 

That's it, end of rant! Lol. 

Maddie is begging me to play sword fight with her before bedtime, I'd better get to that then. Goodnight friends!

Day 99 / 10 -ethics /morals

Ever play the game of telephone? Don't you love how words are completely changed around halfway through the circle?  I for one do not appreciate it. 

Communication is super important, & sadly it does not always come out right. 

I am completely guilty of sometimes not completely listening to people & mis-quoting others...but never maliciously. I try to be an upfront person who is willing to be completely honest with the people in my life. I have my faults & own them, I strive to be a person that my children can look up to & respect. Do I always hit that mark? No, not quite. But I am willing to admit my mistakes & move on. 

Part of being human is being flawed. Part of being a good person is being willing to admit when you have messed up. Another part of being a good person is not hurting others. 

These are lessons that so many people have forgotten. Sometimes I lose sight of doing the right thing...as all flawed people do. I try my best to be the best person I can...sometimes it feels like it's not good enough.  Sometimes I feel like I'm not allowed to make a mistake. I think our society judges others unfairly. I think it has become second nature to a lot of people. 

I am trying my best to teach Maddie to be a forgiving & nonjudgmental person. (As far as C. goes, he has two of the best people I have ever met raising him & teaching him right from wrong...I have no doubts there :) Thank The Lord)

I have made many mistakes in my life & I feel that I have always faced them head on. It is important to be able to admit when you are wrong, that is something I believe in 100% . And that sucks. It is never ever fun to face things head on & admit mistakes. I have done this on more than one occasion & have first hand knowledge. Lol...if only we could ever learn! 

I guess the whole point of this is that today was an enlightening day. No matter  how honest & good you try to be there is always someone out there waiting to judge you, or knock you down. That is a sad fact of life. 

Sorry for the sappy, down post tonight. Sometimes you can just feel when change is needed & right. I feel like I need a change right now. I have been thinking of how I can live my life for my children... And there are changes that could be made. Do I make them? How can you tell what is right? Why is being a good parent (and person for that matter, lol) so hard? Damn this is pretty deep stuff, huh? 

And no, I'm not boozing it up, although sometimes that option sounds very good. :) 

I am trying to be a good person...I am trying to be a responsible person & attempt up help stop a public health crisis for Gods sake! (.  ;) drama much?)but seriously, I take my responsibility in society seriously, whether others do or not. No one can change my view on that. I would hope anyone would want to help make the world a safer place for our children. 

Anyway, getting past my drama for today... I feel good physically. Emotionally I'm a mess because of how "friends" are treating each other lately. Hell, maybe a side effect of Rifampin is mood instability..,I wouldn't know as I'm trying to not google info on it :) 

Sorry for any who don't want to read my drama... I just couldn't help it today. :) 

Some days are just a pain... And my way of clearing my mind is to blog about what's on it. I thank God daily for the blessings in my life... My children, family, friends & stable employment. Those are the important things in life, family being #1, not selfishness. 

Now that I've cleared all that out of my head...I'd like to call out my BFF... I texted her earlier & told her I needed a pick-me-up. Here's what she sent me...

Now, I dare anyone to say there is a better BFF anywhere. She made me smile. Thank God for good friends, especially those who understand crazy.  And thank God for the mothers who raised them right...to not judge crazy. 

I can't complain about life, I have been blessed thus far, & I have faith I will continue to be blessed. All of this drama crap is small, and not important. 

I have gotten off of the demon-meds & onto something more tolerable...small victories! :) I have an amazing family & friends. I have amazing extended family & friends who read my crazy rantings to help me vent. Life is pretty good... And in my heart I know I'm a good person :)

Day 98 & 9

Busy day #2 of 3 at work...let's see if I can make it through #3! :) I'm sure it's gonna take some Starbucks, lol! I am hoping that tomorrow is as good as today was. Love working with great peeps!

Well I'm sad to report that it's another headache day...ugh, but it's bearable. Just wonder what that's all about. I am making myself stay away from reading any Rifampin side effects so I don't put things in my head, lol. Not that there's room for much more of anything in there. :) nevertheless, I'll take the headaches over the neuropathy & liver failure any day. 

Other than that life is great around here. I'm ready for a day off on Thursday, really looking forward to sleeping in a little. Maybe then I can read a little bit & catch up on some things so that I will have something fun to write about. 

Allrighty then, I'm gonna hit the hay now that Miss Maddie is all tucked in. Goodnight friends!

Day 97 & 8.

Just another manic Monday.....one of three down! Two more to go! :) 

I have to say that I have felt so good lately. I guess the upside of the INH trying to kill me was that it helped me lose weight. ;) I hope I can keep it off...it's amazing to think that I'm over 20 lbs lighter than when I started this. And the fact that people are noticing is pretty cool... Makes me feel good. (As if I did anything to make it happen, lol)

I am super lucky to be the mom of an awesome, sweet, encouraging little girl. We are sitting here watching American Ninja Warrior & she is so excited...she's cheering all of the competitors on & is honestly bummed when they don't complete the course.  Such a sweetie!

Well that's about all I have tonight...gotta put my baby girl to bed! Goodnight! Don't let the bed bugs bite!

Day 96 & 7 - football is back!!!

Pre-season or not...but I'm a happy girl!! And it's one of my top 3 QB's... Eli!

Yay for football! :) 

It's been another lazy weekend out here... I did finish with the garden & cut back the 3 in 1 tomato beast, lol. The sweet hubs let me sleep in on both days, today especially. :) which was super helpful & needed, seeing as I went to bed around 730-8ish last night cuz of a headache & didn't get up til 9 this am. That was nice! 

Tomorrow starts 3 in a row...please pray for me! :) 

Here is a pic that Linette sent to me from yesterday's visit... 

Fun times! :) 

All right! I am gonna focus on the last quarter of this game now that the kiddo is in bed! :) goodnight friends! 

Day 6 & 95

Fun times at the 4J today. We had a great visit from Aunt Netter today! :) 

Madfie thoroughly enjoyed herself & played hard today. 

And yes, for any curious minds, I did work in the garden today. I have a bit more to go, & I think I may have to cut some of the tomato plants, as they are trying to take over the deck! Lol. 

More work to come tomorrow!

Now it's bubble time with Maddie & Daddy....I'm also foreseeing another round of hide & seek glow sticks in the pool once it gets dark. Fun! :) 

Who says there's nothing fun to do in the country? 

That's all I have.... I have a monster of a headache so I'm gonna try to hang out with the fam while I can. 

Goodnight friends!

Day 94 & also 5!!

Day five kinda dragged along...until close to shift change when.... Bam!! Let's make you actually work for your $. Lol.

Fun fun times! I am so very thankful to have two days off before my 3 in a row starting Monday.... I am ready to chill out. John tells me that I need to work on the garden tomorrow...crap! When he tells me that, I have seriously been neglecting my garden! I know it's so very true...damn. Don't you hate when you let things pile up & ignore them til you can't anymore? Darn it! Let's hope I can get some things done tomorrow...

So, I ended up working late to help out... So I'm hitting the hay now. Good night friends! :)