Day 62 - another short post

Day 62, pretty uneventful for me. Nothing new as far as s/sx. I am really looking forward to Wed & my Dr appt. let's everyone cross our fingers & toes! :)

I am thankful for great friends who keep me sane... You know who you are!

I am planning on gathering info for all my s/sx on INH to take to the dr. 

It's gonna be a long list, lol! I will check back tomorrow to see how it's coming! 

Goodnight friends!

61 days - end to a great weekend

Day 61 has been pretty laid back. Packed up at the Lakehouse, came home & unloaded the car. Wait, Maddie wants to swim so we better do that ;)

So we swam... Who needs to unpack & clean house? Lol

Still feeling pretty tired, otherwise not much change. Except that my skin is super sensitive these days. I was outside in the sun (with sunscreen) for about 45 minutes & my face is burnt. Yuck. Same thing happened last weekend, guess I need to wear a hat. 

Well, I had better go. Maddie has a ton of presents...she is do excited & wants to play with everything. Thanks again to everyone for coming out & making her day great!

2 months in, 60 days complete!

Only 7 more to go! Well, let's just go with the 2 months down, the other is too depressing, lol. 

Happy Day 60! It's also been Maddie's bday party at the lake. For everyone who came, thank you so much for giving Madison such a great party! For everyone who missed, you missed out on some fun. But I gave her the messages from everyone who sent them. She had a fantastic day. 

From the bounce house/slide, to swimming, the presents & cupcakes, it was great. She is one worn out little girl. 

I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I am so lucky to have such great family & friends. :) it was a great day.

Talk about a princess! And she is turning five! Wow. 

INH -wise it has been ok. Lightheaded a few times earlier in the day & a few memory lapses. Then the recurring evening headache. Fun times. 

But it's not been too bad. :) Being surrounded by loved ones helps.

My little munchkin is out, and I'm not far behind her. Goodnight folks! 

Day 59 ...almost 2 months!

I am barely making it in time for my post tonight. Yikes! :) been busy busy busy trying to get things ready for someone's birthday party.  So I just finished washing the dishes... I have no problem letting then dry themselves, lol. 

I still need to wrap presents (double yikes), cut up fruit & veggies, make cookies, put the party decorations up & put together the favor boxes. Oh crap, gotta air up the balloons also! All before noon tomorrow. And make a crapload of slider patties, cut up cheese. Aw hell, I gotta call it a night so I can rise & shine early tomorrow. 

Goodnight y'all! 

Day 58

I am trying to not be a Debbie Downer today. I've been pretty busy so it has been ok. :) and I had really good company at work. 

On the way home I got another bad headache & that's where I am now. Boo. 

I made an appt with my FP doc to talk to him about the INH & side effects, etc. I am hoping he can help. Next Wed will be that day. I totally trust him & that he has my best interests at heart & not a worry about cost/budget/government crap. I'm gonna be optimistic about it & just let go of the worry. Some way or another, next Wed I will be feeling better about all of this. 

Thanks to all of you guys for your comments, text messages, etc... I really means so much! It really has helped me the last couple of days. You guys rock! 

I have a million things to do tomorrow to get ready for the weekend... 

The story will continue tomorrow....

Day 57 - totally crappy

So, yesterday I gave myself false hope. The whole wanting to change meds is a no go. Apparently I am not suffering enough & don't have "toxic" symptoms. 

And it poured buckets & the roads were rivers & I got lost. Terrible day. :( 

That's all I can manage tonight. Maybe tomorow I can let more out. Goodnight.

Day 56 - warning, kind of a downer post

So tomorrow is the day... My next appt. I am nervous because it's a new nurse & a new location... And I have been super sensitive lately, damn near everything upsets me. :( I'm not so sure what that's all about, but I do have some suspicions. 

I have also been experiencing some difficulty remembering things, words or entire conversations just slip out of my mind. I was thinking it's just my ADD kicking up or something, but it's never been this bad. I'm also putting words in the wrong places when I am speaking. My wonderfully awesome coworker, Princess Melissa, has had to deal with me today. Poor thing, lol. Several times I would notice her looking at me like I'm crazy (yes I know!) but she just wasn't sure that she was hearing me correctly. 

So this, on top of the other side effects is really getting to me. The acneform eruptions (or whatever you want to call it) is getting worse. I am very emotional. In short I am a mess to be around, but I've been trying to avoid discussing it. My poor, poor friends. Lol. And my poor family. 

Tomorrow I am going to beg this new nurse to change my meds. I don't know how much more I can take before losing it. I feel like there's something new every few days. Boo.

Let's all cross our fingers that she listens to me. If she doesn't, I may lose my marbles after all & they might send me to ASH... Just kidding. Maybe. 

Other than that today was normal. Obviously I am very emotional & this probably sounds like a pity party, lol. It all just kinda hit me this afternoon. I think hearing myself today talk to Melissa I realized how bad it has gotten & that I need to face it. I don't really want to.

Sorry for the downer guys, I just can't think of anything fun to write about. I am really hoping I have better things to discuss tomorrow. :) 

I'll leave you with some wise words of advice from a country song I was listening to today... It really made me laugh....

Run and hide your crazy and start acting like a lady. 

This totally fits me lately, and maybe a few of those other friends too. :)

Goodnight.

Day 55 just another fact-finding day

It was a good work day, not too much going on. It would have been better if my co-worker actually helped me remember what I tasked her to ;)

Onto other things... Today I found out that every 15 seconds a person dies from TB. Whoa! Stop that train... That's a lot of people. That's very sad...especially since it is treatable. Well most forms of it are, if people would stop ignoring doctors    & stopping antibiotics too early that would help.  But that is yet another battle. 

While finding out that little tidbit I found that nurses can get free CEU's from the CDC website. Pretty cool. All of my nurse friends should do the TB 101. It would help everyone understand me. :) 

Well, maybe not.

But it would help spread more info about TB, so just do it for the good of mankind.

It's really not that bad as far as CEUs go. And it's free...and didn't take long at all. 

So another fun fact I learned was that from 1/1/14 to 6/20/14 there have been 514 cases of Measles reported from 20 states in the US! Of course Texas is one of them, but I already knew that. But, hello! That's a lot of measles!!! For a disease that was considered eliminated from the US in 2000.... That really sucks. And shows how stupid our society can be.  From 2001-2011 there were 911 confirmed measles patients. And that is a freaking decade! In the last 6 months we have surpassed 50% of that!! 6 months. 

I hope people in favor of not vaccinating or delayed vaccination find out this info & stop & think. They are taking us back to a time where numerous people died from diseases that can be prevented. Stupid stupid stupid! 

Ok, I'm off my rant now. Sorry about that. I can sometimes get a little fired up. 

I need to cool off... I need some Manning time. ;) 

After all that I don't have anything left to chat about. Sorry folks. I hope it wasn't too terrible. Good night!

Day 54 - hey, I fertilized the plants!

So today was pretty lazy also... :)

But Maddie & I did walk down to the cows & Frack to give them treats. And I walked over & gave the chickens some lettuce that was beginning to bolt, they loved it. I also pulled a few weeds again & remembered to feed my plants. Yay me! 

Of course Maddie always wants to "harvest" something, so we pulled some beans & picked some tomatoes. I watched her & daddy swim. I guess that was a full day, lol. ;)

I have a million things I need to do, but just don't feel like doing them. I will regret that this week while preparing for Maddies party & the week being jam-packed. Luckily I have an awesome sis & mom who are always willing to pick up the little pieces I forget. So, get ready y'all!

Countdown to my next appt with dept of health. Still crossing my fingers that it goes ok. My newest symptom is becoming very light headed & dizzy when rising from a sitting position (or crouching in the garden). I'm not really sure what that's about, but hey, let's blame it on the INH. It must be because of that, lol! It has been going on for a week or so, but of course, I never want to admit it. It is really ridiculous...I don't want to be a bother so I keep everything to myself until it gets big enough to make me bothersome! I know it doesn't make sense. And before anyone says it, it's not because I'm a nurse & can self-diagnose ;)

The thing is... I know how busy the docs are, and how silly little things are to them. So I hate to bother them. It's like having slightly abnormal vital signs on a baby, but not calling the dr in until you have something more to tell them. Does that make any sense to you? Well it makes sense in my head.

Well, that's all I can think of. Here's a cute e-card I stole from a friend on fb today... Enjoy!

Day 53 -didn't do a damn thing

Super duper lazy day. I pulled a couple of weeds & started trimming some overgrowth on an oak. Then a red wasp decided it preferred the exact spot I was in. 

Being the kind and generous person that I am, I graciously moved to the swing to sit & watch the family swim. Obviously I was not supposed to be productive today, it just wasn't in the cards. 

I did make my kid a grilled cheese & put potatoes in the oven to go with the steaks John grilled. So that counts, right? :) I also did  the norm for Maddie...pounds of fruit washed/cut up/put in smaller containers for the day. 

Of course after one round of swimming Maddie wanted more cherries. (She had already eaten all the ones mommy had cut up earlier) John gave her a bowl full & she was outside eating them. First, over protective mommy had to stop worrying about her swallowing a pit... I know, she's almost 5 for Pete's sake! I know, don't say it! 

But I looked over to her at one point & she had rivers of red dripping between her fingers & down her hands. Seriously looked like blood. I laughed at her & she stopped eating long enough to look at me... OMG! It was a scene out of a terrible children of the corn/zombie apocalypse movie. She had cherry juice smeared all over her face. Seriously. I wish I had taken a pic, it was one for the books, lol. For reals, it looked like smeared blood at first glance. (Maybe my recently turned zombie BFF was around?) It was great!  Daddy obviously picked some nice juicy cherries...Good job daddy.

So that's my day 53. Awesomeness. 

No new med issues, yay. Nothing jaw dropping to report. And that makes a successful day. 

:) 

Day 52 - TGIF

It's finally Friday! And it's actually really a Friday for me! Yay! :) 

I totally deserve it too... I had to work all by my lonesome today, well half of today anyway. :) And part of that time was spent with a pretty cool pedi. Who was awesome enough to go get me some liquid crack (aka dr pepper) while I couldn't leave the unit. Thanks Dr. C! You rock! 

Why is it that when you don't need any help there are plenty of extra hands around, but when you do need someone there is no one in sight? Lol, par for the course I guess. I swear, I can be totally on my game starting IV's for months, but when I need to rock I sucked! Poor baby, thank goodness there were a couple of super helpful pedi nurses who came to my rescue. :) 

Today has been super busy & very emotional at work. I am totally spent. And yes another headache. Ugh. 

I guess I'll just have to wait & see what my new nurse says next wed. 

That's all folks. :)

Day 51 - another good day

Another beautiful day is ending. I'm hanging out in the backyard listening to the pool, the crickets & birds. What a relaxing end to the day. 

I have been having terrible headaches again today, boo. Other than that, I can't say I have any complaints. Nothing major or witty to write about either. Pretty boring. But boring is good sometimes. 

I guess I did have a pet peeve today, looks like my sis did too. It is so frustrating when people lie to you. If you don't want to say the truth then don't respond. Period. I absolutely hate the feeling of being lied to. I would rather hear the truth & have my feelings hurt than to feel like I can't trust people. It kind of flips your world around to feel like you can't trust the people in your life. 

I am lucky that it have amazing friends who aren't afraid to tell me things. And family. Sometimes they give me brutal honesty, but that's a better option. Luckily I don't usually have to deal with stuff like this, because I am surrounded by good people (maybe not surrounded, my BFF does live in freaking Mexico...hooch) ! 

Oh well. Tomorrow is another day. :) I am hoping for a good one. Sadie & I had better take it back inside & hit the sack... The kitties are out & Oranges is all over Sadie & Grapes is all up in my face, lol. So if there are more typos/misspellings/etc this time it is totally the cats fault! Lol. 

Goodnight friends! 

Day 50 - and to celebrate, here's a list

50 ways Peyton Manning is awesome...

1. He freaking rocks the end zone

2. He is super funny, watch SNL to see :)

3. He is handsome

4. He came to Denver

5. Omaha!!!

6. He is a great leader AND team player

7. He sends Maddie & I "care packages"

8. He sends me messages on Facebook

9. Just watch "The Book of Manning"

10. He is a the best QB ever, serious skills!

Okay I won't kill you guys with my adoration of him.

Just take my word for it that he is a-freaking-mazing! And don't you dare try to argue with me. I am so ready for football season!!!! Too bad I have to be sober up til the next Super Bowl! :(

It goes unsaid that I really really really want the Broncos to go to the Super Bowl this year! And if it's not too much trouble...I would love for the entire team to show up this time. Please. 

(Just have to throw in that I am very excited for the pre-season game in Dallas!! And I have an amazing husband who buys me tickets, knowing that I heart Peyton Manning and if he gets close enough to me I may end up arrested. Just sayin....He is a very tolerant man! Lol)

I love you honey! 

Okay, I really don't know where that came from, I just started thinking what I could make a list of 50 items for. Mr. Manning just popped in my head. Of course I could make a list of 50 reasons he rocks! Once I started it & got to thirty I realized that I may be over-doing it & erased it so that it wouldn't bore people. 

And for reals, he does send us packages... See.....

The proof... There is another one but I can't find the pic, it was for my bday, I got my stuffed Manning.

See? He's awesome! 

And a few times I have missed calls that were from Colorado... I know that  they were totally him! ;)

Ok, ok... Back to life.

7 days til my visit with a new dept of health nurse... Ugh. I'm so looking forward to that.  My only complaint is that I keep getting these terrible headaches. I really don't know what they are from. Hell, INH probably causes them, or the combo of pills I have to take does. Who knows... The thing about it is that I'm taking 2-10 more pills a day, depending if it's Ibuprofen or Asprin. I'll probably have an aversion to pills after this. 

But that will probably be fine, seeing as there will probably be a huge hole in my stomach from all of them, lol. :) just kidding here peeps. 

I do have an app on my phone with reminder on when to take which pills. Every single one of them. 

The alert sounds like birds. 

I am seriously about to kill me some birds!

Alas, all good things must end. I had better get to bed. You never know what tomorrow may bring. 

Good night, sleep tight!

Day 49

Almost 50 days in! Woo hoo! I am still kicking. I never did hear back about my liver function tests, so I am assuming that I'm fine. Another score for me! 

I ended up working late so I am super tired now. And my poor baby girl has a fever. Boo. What a night to complain! 

I'm pretty sure my BFF has turned into a zombie, so it's a mess everywhere. ;) lol, of course just kidding. 

But for reals, my brain is mush. Well crap, I can't really use that as an excuse, my brain has been mush all day...just ask anyone I worked with. :) I would be in the middle of a conversation & then totally forget what I was saying. Lol, I swear I'm not that old! 

Thankfully my awesome sister came to see me today & she started taking care of some birthday plans for Maddie. That's good, considering that mommy has dropped the ball. I have the decorations, just nothing else figured out. Lol, we will just wing it. That always works, right? :) 

Seeing as how I am jumbling all my thoughts, I should probably cut this off now. Goodnight friends!

Day 48 - fun questions night!

I get home after a long but great day at work... To a little girl who is full of questions. The most fantastic one was... Mommy, how do you pop a baby out of your tummy? 

Of course we have had a similar conversation before, but this time she told me that her BFF (we will call him "B") is going to be a daddy & he loves her. He is going to be married to her. 

Nice. Then she says she's having a baby pop out of her tummy in 100 days. Out of the mouth of babes, I tell ya.  Then we discuss her dress & she needs dancing shoes that make her walk high. Wow. 

Now we are to the " but how do they pop out?" part. I tell her that she can't pop out a baby until 30 more years :) 

Granmama tells her she has to go to school & college first. She's down with that, but how do they pop out? 

Hmmm... Look! A cookie! :)

It is a great life. :) I am a very lucky girl.  The meds seem less & less important. (Until there are new side effects, then they are ruining my life!) lol

I am still super interested in the whole history of TB though. I swear I'm going to somehow work this into any projects I may have to do for school. As of now the plan is to start in November. We will see how that goes. More to come soon. 

It has been a long day, & I've got to gear up for another one tomorrow. :) Goodnight peeps! 

Btw, if you couldn't tell my ADD is in full swing today. Oh look......Squirrel!! 

:)

Day 47 Happy Fathers Day!

Happy Daddy's Day for all the wonderful dads out there. I am lucky enough to have two who are great. And Maddie is super lucky to have her daddy. As she said yesterday..."mommy, you're not brave like me & daddy" 

That's about doing the "dive & retrieve" the princesses or dive rings. Nope, mommy is not all about that. That's something she & daddy can have, lol! She is turning into quite the swimmer. She is such a fish! 

I got to see my awesome sister today (and her hubby) :) I hate that we don't see each other more, but that seems to be story of my life these days. That's pretty sad, but today made me start thinking of things like that. Life is precious & can be taken away in an instant. I found out that a coworker of mine passed away unexpectedly this morning. I use the term coworker lightly, as I haven't worked with him in over a year. But that isn't what really matters.

The fact is that a good man is no longer with us today.  That in itself is extremely sad. He was a great nurse & will be missed by many. I can picture him at shift change, always a great sight because he was always early & so easy going...giving him report was always smooth. 

I know my Dell peeps are having a rough time with this, as you could imagine. If I could hug them all I would. I am so sorry for all of them. It must be very hard to have to be working on the unit & just seeing him everywhere. 

So that's my story today...hug the ones you love. You never know what can happen tomorrow. 

I'm married to a slave driver -day 46

It's really no wonder, lol. I've grown up with my mom & Grannie who are major slave drivers. :)  Grannie says there are  no free meals! Lol

But I helped John paint the shed (aka pool house) all afternoon. Although I did get the easy job of painting in the shade, I got a blister. Boo. Before all the "boo hoo poor baby" comments, it really sucks for me to have any breaks in skin on my hands at work. You know that NICU nurses wash their hands like a million times a day, right? And that doesn't count the 2 million times we use the alcohol foam instead. Oh bother! 

Of course I didn't get much of a reaction out of him either. :P

And darn it all, that stupid peripheral neuropathy reared it's ugly head again. Here I am, up on a thirty foot ladder (hey, it feels that way) and my foot starts with the pins & needles. I am already a nervous wreck on tall ladders, having a dead foot really didn't help matters. 

Then my thumb on my left hand went dead too. Holy hell! I am just falling apart! Might as well just put me out to pasture. 

All joking aside, I did a great job painting (if I do say so myself) and I kept on going thru all that. Of course I tried to do all the low stuff instead of being on the (10 ft) ladder. When it was all said & done I had a dead hand & foot, although the foot was starting the lovely process of coming back to life... Oh yes and a blister. But we got a lot of painting done! Yay! :)

Maddie & her cousin had a great day of in & out swimming all day long :) 

And then we all went swimming, until I finally had to get out cuz it was FREEZING! I guess technically it wasn't, but all the rain did lower the temp back down to the nowayinhell level. I tried. But I am a wuss. So I watched them all swim while I sat in the sun & warmed up. 

Now that's a beautiful day! 

That's about my day wrapped up. Of course I did play candy crush a few times today too. No way could I skip that for a day. :) And I'm currently trying to beat my BFF in words with friends. Man Alive! How do I find the time? :) 

Hope everyone gets some good rest for a great Fathers Day tomorrow. :)

Day 45 nice Friday evening

Reflecting back on day 45 while hanging out by the pool watching Maddie & PayPay have an evening swim. :) Tiki torches are going & the crickets are in full concert mode. What a great Friday! 

It was a good day at work with my girl Stef, snuggling with the babes. A family brought me candy & a thank you card, totally made my day. 

Med wise not much has changed... Still taking a zillion pills a day, at least the INH is at night now. I do think it is making a big difference, I'm not feeling nearly as tired as I was. So yay for that! :) 

It has been a long work week for me, I can't think of much to say. 

So I'll leave you with a pic of my Sadie girl. She says Goodnight!! 

Day 44 - storm watch

So right now we are under a tornado warning/watch whatever, we keep getting alerts to take shelter. Fun times. So this all to my blog today, I'm gonna go stalk the radar. 

Stay safe everyone! 

Day 43 - a much needed break

Today was a true day off. I didn't have to take Maddie to school, just got up early & helped John get her ready & he took her in. Then I got to sleep in... Until about 815 when Sadie decided she needed to go outside, lol. But no worries, I can fall back to sleep easily. ;)

So I did, and really didn't do much else today. I did take a long bubble bath & relaxed to my music....a Pandora lullaby station. I know, it sounds a little weird. 

But here is the background to that....some of my favorite babies at work   (Some other nurses might make them their least favorite-to each their own) are Withdrawal babies. Babies born (usually early) that have been regularly exposed to legal/illegal substances during their fun times in the uterus. So after they are born they are no longer getting their fix they are used to, so they start to withdrawal. 

It's not any more fun for babies than it is adults. Withdrawing sucks. So of course they are not happy campers, and can have a huge variety of symptoms. After they are stable it's a long road. Some of these kiddos are with us for months & months. And they usually cry... A LOT! 

But come on peeps, wouldn't you? I really love these babies because they need lots of love. They need to be held a lot. They need people with patience. It just so turns out that my kiddo had a rough start to life with her reflux & such, so I have a lot of experience in dealing with hurting/crying/inconsolable babies. I have a lot of patience with them (usually, but let's be real here, sometimes I wanna scream too) and I love to snuggle with babies, even screaming ones. 

So back to my story about lullabies. Once we are weaning these babes off of drugs we gave then to help them, they turn into inconsolable babies. My MO is to #1 make sure their diaper is clean ;) then put on a wrap & wear them, walk with them, cry with them, sing to them. I put on my pandora station & we hang out & listen to the very relaxing music. 

It turns out, that same music really helps me relax, and I will listen to it a lot (my coworkers can verify that they too are forced to listen with me) whenever I am stressed. Or just want to relax. So we are back full circle to the bubble bath with lullabies. I hope you have enjoyed the journey ;)

I discovered a couple that I love to listen to Renee & Jeremy. They make great music. One of my faves is "three little birds" 

Part of the song is "don't worry about a thing, cause every little thing, gonna be allright" 

I love this song. I love to snuggle with babies & listen to it. It's kind of a mantra (formerly in my head only, thanks blog) that I have for withdrawal babies. I have sung that song to so many babies... 

So there is my sappyness & an inside view of what makes me tick. Most people might not feel that I have a soft side, but they have obviously not seen the p.s.a. for Resting Bitchy Face!

Anyhooo... I've had a nice relaxing day, and it has been great. Back to the grind tomorrow.  I did get out to check out my corn garden & took a few pics. Before you make fun of my corn, just realize I am  a super busy woman & sometimes forget to fertilize my gardens... Usually it's the corn garden that's farther from the house that gets forgotten. Hey out of sight, out of mind, right? But I am proud to be growing these awesome plants just from a little seed... There are a lot of little corncobs growing! I'm so excited! I really like corn ;) 

It has been a great day 43. :) That about wraps it up, hope you enjoyed today's trip thru my mind. Keeping in tune with the rest of the day, I'll sign off....

Say goodnight to the runaway bunny, the pokey ole puppy and that bear that likes honey. 

Say goodnight to daddy and mummy, say goodnight moon, goodnight stars, Goodnight moon.

:)

Day 42... Rinse & repeat

Today was pretty much like yesterday, except change the coworker & I took my INH at 3. Yay! Still lots of fruit that needed to be eaten. Of course I couldn't let it go to waste....

Not much otherwise, I finished my audiobook with the jacked up landmarks, lol! :) it was pretty good though. 

Ho Hum...I don't really have anything to say, that's probably cuz my body is screaming for me to get some sleep! I must oblige. 

See ya on day 43!

Day 41 - Chocolate covered fruit!

What a glorious day 41! Stef & I were working the unit today & we got a huge Edible Arrangement delivered today. Like prob costs at least $120 huge! We have amazing families that are super sweet to send us gifts. Two fruit loving girls.... We made pigs of ourselves, it was bfast, lunch & snack, & we prob only touched 1/3 of it. 

Have you ever had chocolate covered pineapple? OMG! I never would have believed it was so yummy. I looked at Stef like she was crazy....then I tried it! Yumm! And then choc covered strawberries & apples.  Oh yeah, there was a lot of non-chocolate covered fruit too, it was all very yummy for my tummy! :) 

Wow, who would've thought that chocolate covered fruit would be the highlight of my day. It's the little things in life :)  

So, I'm hoping that moving my INH helps, and I think it will. I was great until I took it at 1. It really hit me this afternoon, it was a big difference. So tomorrow I'll take it at 3 & in a couple days it will be a night time med! Yay! If I'm right that will help with the fatigue. If I'm wrong...who cares? I'm still taking meds morning & night, lol. 

Well an update on the cute fluffy little bunnies... At least one little bitty one is living under the deck... Right beside my small garden. And it's friends like to spend evenings by the pool eating on my flowers & veggies. Again, little shits!! Anybody want to go hunting Wabbits? ;)

Just kidding... I will figure something out though... I guess we don't really eat all the veggies we grow. 

So, 16 days til my next dept of health appt. and unfortunately it's not with Nurse Sweet Grandma/Evil Stepmother. 

So, I hope her replacement for these next two months has a sense of humor. If not, who knows how it will go! Lol. And I have to drive to Temple to meet her. Let's keep our fingers crossed that she's ok. 

I guess that's it tonight, it's been a very long day & I work tomorrow. Actually I am working four days this week so that little Mrs Shan can go play at Disney! I hope it's fun! 

Until tomorrow......

Today is day 40! Only 230 to go!

What a nice lazy Sunday morning...a little bit of rain, Maddie let me sleep in, and we had Sticky Bagels! Score!

And then an early dinner with the fam to celebrate my Awesome Older Sisters B-day! (It's really tomorrow.....but who's counting anyway?) It was nice to get together, I guess I am a little boring now that I don't drink. Hmmm, we did decide that I need one of those humongous bottles of Grey Goose that you see in bars for day 271! We're gonna party like it's 1999! Of course by then I'll be such a lightweight that two drinks will probably put me out! :) 

No med issues today, except I'm trying to move my INH to take at night. I've been moving taking it by 1.5 hr increments daily. I'll try to take it at 1:00 tomorrow. Stef you better remind me sister! I'm hoping that might help with the fatigue, I guess we will see. 

Happy Trails to you, until we meet again. ;)

Day 39...Have you ever met a rude Starbucks barista?

Well I sure did this morning. One freaking car behind me & I tell her I forgot to ask for a cup of water....and she starts giving me attitude & says if I would have asked at "the box" I wouldn't be making people wait behind me. 

Wtf? There was one car behind me that just ordered! Seriously, I had to wait for them to finish their order before she would turn to me. I just said "okaaay" & she took her sweet time getting it for me. I was pretty suprised, I've never had a rude person at Starbucks, hell, usually they want to small talk & I just want to be my anti-social self & roll up the window. Lol. I guess she was having a worse day than me... I wonder if she's on INH too? Just kidding :) I guess my point is that I was blown away by her rudeness. I don't guess she got a look at my scrubs & saw that I'm a super star nurse. I mean... Hello! These hands save babies!!! ;)

(With the help of awesome dr.s, & other nurses & rt's)

Anyway, enough with the downers... I am currently sitting outside by the pool, listening to the water fall into it & trying to think of something funny to write about. When I discover an intruder out of the corner of my eye....

I'm a little far away, can you see him? Little shit! They like to eat my poor raspberry bushes! Sure, they look cute & cuddly.... It's a ploy.

Today was a good day med-wise, I can't complain. :) And I got to work with a super cool nurse, the day is so much more enjoyable when you have good company. (That means you Melissa) 

She & Becca let me talk & talk & they never told me (or my face anyway) to stop with the crazy talk. That's a good friend ;) 

I had better spend some time with the fam, have a good night! 

Day 38 - My baby graduates from Pre-K

PToday my sweet girl graduated from Pre-K. It was super cute! She also got the "most caring" award. I am very proud of her & the fact that she already can empathize with people. Such a sweetie. 

Not really sure where she got that, lol! 

It is almost surreal to look at pics from just a year ago & see such a difference! 

How cute is that? :) notice the yellow underneath her gown? 

Onto my tb meds & my meds because of the tb meds, lol. So, I've noticed starting last week that I have started breaking out all over my face. Super weird cuz I haven't changed any of my routine as far as face wash/moisturizer/makeup...  I started thinking back to see if I forgot to wash my face one night or something...washed all the sheets again even though it hadn't been but a few days since the last wash. WTH? My last train of thought on it was, what has changed? The only thing I could think of was the adding of a gazillion vitamins for the peripheral neuropathy. That must be it! 

Yea, no. :( That would have been incredibly too easy... While searching for med causes of acne (or acneform eruptions if you want the correct term) and what pops it's ugly little face up? 

None other than my favorite new med, INH! Of course it does, cuz that's my luck! The freaking statistics are like 1% of people taking INH...Really?  How lucky am I? 

Seriously, I really should buy some lottery tickets cuz I'm totally defying all the odds!

Or maybe I should just stay inside during any storms, of course who do you think would get struck by lightening! I am just going to go with it & say I have awesome odds & that's just super duper awesome! 

I've been trying so hard to not complain & feel sorry for myself (or family & friends) because it really could be way worse. I could have active tb.... Actualy with my history it would probably be active XDR TB (extensively drug resistant tb)! So no matter how I look at it, it could be so much worse. I am very lucky to have found out when it was latent. 

I am also very lucky to have the coolest BFF ever! We can go without speaking for 3 weeks & pick up our last conversation! We both get that, although I live in "Canada" & she lives in "Mexico" we are still great friends, distance doesn't change that! Ahem, Tiffany Jean, I love you & miss you even though you are in "Alaska"! 

Oh yes, can't forget how lucky I am to have the greatest family too! Both mine & my husbands side. How lucky can a girl get? 

All right, that's about all the wool I can spin today. Onward, thru the fog! 

Day 37 - Crazy ladies in cars

Today was ok symptom-wise. I am still fighting these stupid allergies, but otherwise good. :) yay! Just one day closer to my next Mexican Martini! 

So I am an audio book junkie. I pretty much can't stand to be in my car & not listen to a book. :) it makes the drive go by so much faster. I love the library, and have to go at least once a week to get new books. 

Some people sing with the radio. Me,  I laugh, cry, cuss back at the story, or just generally look like a crazy person, lol. Fun times! But it is free! :) 

The point I was going to make with this is, I was laughing at the story on the way home tonight. It's a book about a reporter from Washington being sent to the Hill Country to write some articles. The author tried to throw in little tidbits, but today I just had to laugh. Apparently they were driving back from Copperas Cove to Lampasas. Here's the funny part... So driving from Lampasas to Llano, they drive by Enchanted Rock! LMAO! It was good of them to try to throw in local places & such, but they could try to look at a map. :) I'm waiting for more laughs to come, I've only just started this book.

Lol, fun times. 

It's been a super fun day... I'm ready to Benadryl it out now! Woo Hoo! 2 more pills. Awesomeness. Good night!

Only 234 days to go! Day 36

I'm gonna try to make this post upbeat. We'll see if I can :)

So today started with taking Maddie to the library, then swim lessons, then school...only to be reminded to turn in her wellness form that was due April 1. And it's been ready at the pedi's office for about two weeks, lol. I forgot all about it! Shocking! 

Then had to take my new car back to the  dealership for them to remove & replace a screw that they stripped out when putting on the paper plates, we couldn't get it off to put on the real ones. And I've been driving around for a couple days without any plates on the back. And I never got pulled over! Score! 

Anyway, despite making an appt beforehand I was there over 2.5 hrs! Over a freakin screw! Needless to say, I wasn't a happy camper. 

So onto tb/meds issues. Good news, the extra probiotics seem to be helping! Another score! 

Bad news, I'm having some major equilibrium issues. After speaking with my personal nurse :) I decided it's probably allergies. I have all kinds of sinus pain & pressure... And pretty much feel like I'm gonna pass out at any moment. No bueno. It has sucked, all day long. So add more meds to the daily count, I have been needing Benadryl & Asprin & ibuprofen at different intervals. I will be so happy to be done with all these pills. Only 234 more days. Only 2,808 more pills (not including allergy/headache extra pills) to go if it all stays the same. I should find a ticker... That would be encouraging. 

Well my Benadryl is kicking in again. Time to hit the hay! 

Day 35 - lazy day

So it's been a lazy day with just a few chores getting done. I tried to catch up on my Greys Anatomy, now I'm only 8 weeks behind. 

So I finally got my next appt scheduled... I have to go to Temple. :( I am losing my Sweet Grandma/Evil Stepmother for 10-12 weeks. Boo. I was really starting to like her. So now I have to drive to bfe to get my meds. 

Still having some side effect issues, so this is about it tonight. Sorry folks, it's been a "eh" kind of day. The bed is calling me. :)

Day 34 - Are you ready for some football?

Day 34.... OMG, I just bought tickets to see my Broncos!!! Yippee! John & I will go see them play, of course in enemy territory. August 28 at the Cowgirls stadium. I am so excited! I get to lust after Peyton & John gets to lust after cheerleaders...seems like a fair trade to me. We are on the very first row. Fair warning...if Peyton gets close enough I may need someone to bail me out of jail, I will be in full stalker mode. ;) 

Well I switched back to good ole Adderall, as I felt like I was dying on the other stuff. And I'm pretty sure I annoyed everyone I worked with, lol. I felt loads better today. Except for the GI stuff. I have gone from taking probiotics as precautionary measure to a treatment. Yuck. I know. 

Has everyone heard about the xdrtb? It is super scary. It is way worse than mdrtb, as we have run out of options to kill it. This is exactly why you are supposed to finish any & all antibiotics. People don't realize that by stoping taking them (of course cuz they feel better) they are helping the bacteria grow stronger & helping it find a way to live. Who would willingly want to help tb become worse? Just food for thought guys...

http://us.cnn.com/2014/05/28/health/return-white-plague-incurable-tb/index.html?sr=sharebar_google

Sorry that I am not savvy enough to make that a link. But you guys can copy & paste, right? If not go ahead and google it, it's not too hard, lol. 

Oh crap, I almost forgot! I missed a FaceTime call last night from Colorado. Too bad I don't know how to Face Time...it would have been nice to be able to talk with my Manning! ;)

That's about all I've got right now. 

I am about to fall asleep. Here's a photo to keep awake... Peace out! :)

Day 33 - The pool is open!

The pool is a nice 78 degrees & although it is a tad bit chillier than I prefer, it was nice. Although John & Maddie have been swimming for a while, lol. Mommy is a wimp. But I did get in for a while. :)

Symptom-wise I feel like crap. I'm calling the dr tomorrow to see if he will change my meds. I hoping it's just the change in the one & that it doesn't have anything to do with the extra vitamins. But overall I'm just kinda here today. 

I did get the chance to do some reading up on the history of tb today. There is some totally interesting stuff, if you like things like that. I'm gonna have to summarize it all one day. Hmm, I should totally actually "try" to make it look good, maybe I could use it once I start school. Which btw, I applied Tuesday. The next step is taking an assessment, which I am in no condition to do right now. Let's get this med thing fixed. I can't believe I actually applied! I swore I wasn't going to do it unless they (Seton) made me. Guess I was wrong. Never underestimate the power of Shanaynay. She's pretty convincing. And I can't let my BFF one-up me, even though she did it a couple years ago...anyways. 

Speaking of the whole Seton thing, it was all over the news (and fb) so I guess I can talk about it. I feel bad for the NICU girls out there & the maternity girls. It's a crappy situation. Only a few months ago we (CP NICU) went thru a huge change & had all the emotions & craziness going on. 

But we had a heads up & a while to adjust, it kinda sucks for it to just happen. They have it way worse. If any of y'all are reading this, I know how you feel...partially. And I'm sorry, it's so not cool. But I'm always a good person to vent to, I can make you feel like it's not so bad... You could be me! Okay that might seem insensitive, it's just a joke though. 

Okay my ADD is totally in overdrive & I've got to stop now. Hope you all have a good one! 237 days!